Happy New Years! Epic Changes Ahead…
(warning: for the purposes of this blog, Nikki & Alexandra’s life crises will coincide. Crises is the plural of crisis <– therapy lessons. Haha, jk, we’re just feeling 2014 fierce, time to be happy!)
Remember this well-blogged sofa… and all the indecision.
Turns out, I thought buying a couch would make my house seem like “home”. And then, of course, my brother would want to visit me more often. And friends would come over for wine and drink it on my sofa and hang out, and it would be okay if they spilled a little because it’s a slipcover. And I would feel like I lived in a better apartment in a better neighborhood. I would also get a better job from which I could come home and relax on the sofa. I would want to stick around New York for a few more years. *sigh* *FAIL*
I tried. I really, really, really tried. I invested everything into trying to make a happy life and living space here. Up until the minute I came back from my Midwest holiday on 12/31/13 and could no longer tolerate wanting to be home and actually living in NYC at the same time. Such contradictions are not good for the mind-body and spirit. It felt like I left my heart in Illinois.
I declared for the umpteenth time to my live-in boyfriend that I was not happy here. He was surprised. (?!) Then a rapid, rapid spiral of exit plans spilled out of me like I was on a life preserver being whisked away on a currant that was bigger than me. I have to move back. I’m already happier. I’m un-stuck. Someone is coming to get me. There are other couches I can sleep on. It’s a feeling in my bones. It’s not even a thought. My boyfriend says it’s a logical decision and I have to go; he’s letting me go. I feel it in my bones. He is relieved. I’m going back. Living the big city is not for me. It’s happening soon. Two weeks notice, NYC. That’s all the good-byes I can tolerate. I need the momentum. Sofa or no sofa. Stuff or no stuff. I am out. For one million good reasons. One million good reasons I have to go.
I’ll try to keep you guys updated on the rapid un-decorating of my life here, processing of ALL THE FEELINGS, cross country moving road trip caravan, and more indecision as I try to find a new home.
Please msg if you want to buy the sofa $800 OBO, cash and carry in Brooklyn. :)